Saturday, June 6, 2009

one of the most freeing things in the world

I recently met this man named austin. He goes to calvin college and is the same age as me. We are working together at camp and one night we had a heart to heart. I really liked something he said and it has resonated with me ever since. He wondered why there were so many great quality girls at christian colleges. He figured out that it was because they knew their worth. they found their worth in God and so they knew they were something special they are princesses of the most high king. so then they are looking for men who meet their standards and in turn men rise to meet those standards. and it is just a trade off of becoming better and better. I really liked that realization.

Tonight a man i was talking to couldn't believe that i didn't have a boyfriend or that i wasn't boy crazy and looking for one. he was baffled that i was content to be by "myself." He also couldn't believe that I didn't like to drink. we talked more and i told him about my love for art and sports. He told me that I was going somewhere in life that i was someone special. he said he saw something different in me. I thought about it and it reminded of the conversation that austin and i had. If there is anything special about me it is solely from God and my love for him. Maybe that is the difference. Because I want God first in my life I don't have to chase after empty fulfillments i don't have to worry about finding the right guy because i know God is faithful and if I am suppose to be with someone he will see that it happens. Letting God take control is very hard but one of the most freeing things in the world.

one phone call....it made me think

Life events such as weddings funerals and births always make you stop and think
today my aunt was married in holland and on the way to her wedding my grandpa
and father relived their own wedding days and honeymoons.

Now I took away a couple thoughts from these stories which were told. First my
papa and nana went to lake geneva for their honeymoon, I am living on lake geneva
this summer it was interesting to think they were there when they were my age, married.

the second was when he told me about how 10 days after the wedding he was shipped off
to the war in korea. he said this when talking about the war:

its one of those things that you would never do again if you had the chance
but would never give up the experience for a million dollars.

I thought that was interesting and what events i could say that about in my own life.
He also told me how he only talked to my nana once that entire year he was gone in korea.
imagine the first year of marriage half a world away with only 1 5 min phone call. its interesting to think about relationships and what that means. is it being together in sight or keeping in constant contact....or is it something more. It made me think alot.